The Doubtful Heart

The heart has so much to say but no one to hear it...

It brings with it those breathless days when you wait to clear it...

Sweeping away the hectic dust with the broom of faith…

The wait is long like a lazy snail struggling to bear it…

Why does the heart wish for something which has no importance indeed?

Why is there a hope of growth when there is actually no seed?

Why the roots become so numb at a point when strength is in need;

Why the hell this mind is shattered like rolling groups of beads

That hit from here to there so bad, that make the heart go numb and sad;

That shines in pain and glow in sweat,

Those reflect the despair look of fate,

These beads that once were a chain held so strong

Have lost their hope of forming that bond

Questions indeed there are some more to ask…

Answers, well that’s next to impossible task…

As life juggles through vigorous affairs,

People taking you for granted are a common share…

And the soul just goes through a new phase of wear and tear…

Every-time you doubt yourself in despair.

Matured Love....

Greens and wide, cozy hide,

a wonderful lonely site...

Branched out strong, a shimmering bond,

Washing us bright, was that glittering light..

A world of our own,

we have woven so close,

Flowing so naturally in a gradual tone...

That look so right, in a withering night,

Those wet eyes, craving for a sight,

Now rest in peace, in a hold so tight...

Life has more reasons to stay bright.

Mature is this love, no more games to play,

Growing feelings now know their way...

Two became one, the soul now knows where to stay...

No more the bond is soft like the clay...

Kisses which meant affection, now also mean care...

Eyes that gazed long…now search for a glimpse of glare…

A touch of love, a touch of sight,

Make some wrong things….JUST SO RIGHT…

Those walk in the puddles, those memorable cuddles...

smoothly, happily , left behind are, so many hurdles

and moving on ahead also, this will be, together One, A FAMILY.

Expectations....WHY???

Ever thought, why do we expect so much?? Specially in Relationships......

Why each of us out there has that long list of I WANT......

Half of the times our hearts and minds don't even say them, but still, they are there, deep inside us...

Yes..These are EXPECTATIONS and don't mistake them with Dreams...

Well I won't say that Expecting is BAD....but...EXPECTATIONS ARE DANGEROUS.....most of the times....cause most of the times we fail TO UNDERSTAND WHAT OUR PARTNER EXPECTS, AND SAME HAPPENS WITH US TOO....leading to..... SADNESS.

You must be wondering, why I have used this word...Dangerous? Well, that's because, it leads to an unexpected chain reaction of pressures, frictions, traumas, fights and eventually MISUNDERSTANDINGS.

The root cause of all misunderstandings in this world is....EXPECTATION.

You must have often heard people saying..." I had expected you....." and so on the argument begins leading to actually...NOWHERE....NOT EVEN A SOLUTION ACTUALLY.

So, is there actually a SOLUTION to this?? Well, my recent experience says.....YES!!!
BE FRANK TO EACH OTHER AS MUCH YOU CAN........SPEAK OUT...
JUST EMPTY YOUR BUCKETS ON THE OTHER...DON;T WAIT THEM TO OVERFLOW AND STINK...
BE RIDICULOUS...that means....Even if you feel ridiculous in telling your partner or friend what you are expecting and it could make them feel bad or vice versa, still..........DO IT....IT HELPS CLEAR DOUBTS AND MISCONCEPTIONS....
BE EQUAL....with each other and treat each other as equal partners. None of the other is weak, or gonna BEAR YOU ALL THE TIME.....so BETTER TAKE CARE OF THAT.

Well, these are just little TIPS from my side....HOPE IT HELPS and MAKES YOU AWARE....

As WE ARE BORN WITH EXPECTATIONS....and We must not KILL them literally...

EXPECTING also makes a RELATIONSHIP STRONG. Because you start doing things for your partner which you actually never thought you would have else.

But yes...LIFE AND LOVE IS NOT AT ALL ROSY...but you can surely make it one if you are willing to.

"Maa" (Mother).. Now i know WHO YOU ARE...

I remember that day as a child, when I used to harass YOU a lot (which I still do)
The days when YOU did just everything for me (and still do),
The days when my sadness was nothing less than a nightmare for you (and still is)
The days when you worked 24 x 7 like a robot and I may have never realized  but all I did was had innocently asked,
"How do you manage to do so much? ", and till date YOU have just one answer... “Wait till the day you become a mother...”

One of my closest cousin sisters, recently had an angel baby girl, so it was my first experience to closely observe the first glimpses of a new born. I could relate to her a lot to a point as everyone recalled the days of my childhood whenever we saw her playing and smiling or even crying...But I suddenly realized that this little princess , is actually not even aware of her own-self. She is still discovering the faces, voices, movements around her... Those little hands which she crazily moved as if she wanted to box with someone, she didn't even know whether they were hers...or what they were...Those little legs which she almost made to dance, she didn't even know, could make her roam the world and explore wonders.

But this period of mere 7 days, made me realize something important within, which I hadn't in all these years, or I must say, I hadn't valued all these years –

 “It’s you Maa (Mother)”

Isn't it strange...that a baby, who cannot say anything, but still by her little expressions, made me realize how important YOU are.
Its definitely true that one tends to realize the importance of a person only when you take his/her place. And that’s what I observed in these 7 days...
A mother realizing how important her own mother is for her...and how the cycle tends to repeat for her when she becomes a grandmother and teaches her own daughter to take care of her baby.
In this process, the relation that becomes really lovely and strong is that between a Daughter and a Mother.

"And so has mine with you Maa..."

The person who has well adjusted with all my worst and irritating habits is YOU...and so I understand why you get angry even today on my little mistakes....
I have made you wake up so many nights, and no better than you could accompany me that time...and so I know why you still worried when I come home late....
Countless times must you have given up your happiness and interests just because I had to be attended first, and I am sorry if I still take the first share unknowingly...from now I will take care....
Just a little cry of mine made you run to me like a storm, and there i was in your arms, quiet and still, and smiling, and secure, and still your arms are the best place to be in...
I know I do feel a little trapped sometimes, but I now know that you are possessive about me, and fear to let me go alone...

Well, I still don’t know exactly the feeling of what a Mother actually is, but yes, the respect for YOU has definitely increased. I may have many differences from you, but you tend to have them with the ones you love so so much...
I don't know if ever I will be able to understand YOU...or WHO YOU ARE...

But surely I agree to the world known fact....

GOD COULDN'T BE EVERYWHERE....SO HE MADE YOU ... MOTHER!!!!


I LOVE YOU....

~Kriation~